Friday, November 18, 2011

I am a Warrior...

My favorite yoga asana right now has got to be Warrior II (Virabhadrasana II).

It's pronounced veer-ah-bah-DRAHS-anna and it comes from the word Virabhadra which is the name of a fierce warrior, an incarnation of Shiva, described as having a thousand heads, a thousand eyes, and a thousand feet, wielding a thousand clubs, and wearing a tiger's skin.

I don't know if I feel that powerful when I'm doing Warrior II, but it undoubtedly makes me feel powerful too. I feel like I am a warrior.

My legs are engaged, working, and strong. My head is turned to the side as if I'm looking towards the future with unwavering courage. My hand, with straight fingers is pointing towards what's to come without fear. My gaze is steady, soft but intent.

If I had to pick a pose to represent my life right now, Warrior II would be it. I'm feeling strong. I've been exercising and taking care of myself for a long time now. I've been meditating to exercise my mind and to have a clear picture of what I want out of life. I'm changing things I'm unhappy with and reevaluating my world on a daily basis. I'm becoming more patient and more observant.

There have been times in the past that I have felt like a victim of my own life. I felt as though my efforts were fruitless to change my situation- that I was caught in the whirlpool of life and it was taking me on a ride I didn't neccessarily want to be on. I don't feel like that any longer.

I am the architect of my life now. I am its artist, its composer to some extent and I am changing things that I don't like in my world. That doesn't mean life is without it's hiccups now and again, but I feel stronger and more able to respond with grace when they do occur. I have a plan and it's starting to come together.

I am a work in progress. I am surrounding myself with positive people and not taking any crap from the negative ones. I am still soft and gentle and kind but I am also braver, stronger, and tougher, than I've ever been before.

I am a Warrior.