Thursday, March 8, 2012

21 Day Challenge Thoughts...

Today I bring you a wonderful guest post by my friend and fellow yogi, Sandy Newby...

Day 16 Meditation Challenge, so for 16 days I have taken time out of my day to meditate and look inwards, well ok so I’ve missed a day here or there, but sometimes my life is just too busy.  Oh, and there was that one time it was a laughter meditation, I just could not sit there and listen to others laughing for absolutely no reason and not feel totally absurd.  I did crack a smile twice and laugh just before I turned it off!   
But aside from those missteps I have dutifully shut myself into my bedroom and opened my mind to the possibility of finding the peace and serenity that I am so desperately searching for.   

Having gone through 16, or so, days of a 21 day program am I any closer to finding peace and serenity?  I don’t know is my honest answer.  At times I feel more peaceful, but with my life getting busier every day  work, 3 kids, a home, a husband that doesn’t help out as much as I would like and fighting viruses that have STEAMrolled through my house; all have taken their toll on me so it is hard to tell.  

 I am grumpy at times and at a loss for patience with my family.  However, I do not stay in that place for long.  I do find my mind is able to get to a peaceful place quickly, but I also feel as though my emotions, be it anger or sadness, are also closer to the brink as well.  I have literally broken down in tears twice while meditating, I am sure the experts might say that is a good sign and I do believe it could be but sometimes I just feel as though I am going to lose it.  

 So now I have to ask myself what do I do when the 21 days are over?  Will I continue on in my own unguided attempt to find peace and oneness through meditation or will I look for another way, something that suits my personality more?  I have always found that running is a great way for me to feel at one with myself and I have not been able to run as much as I like due to the weather and injuries.  So for now I will finish up my 21 day Challenge, because it is not like me to start something I don’t finish and because in the end I am feeling more balanced and peaceful than I have felt in a long time.  See you in the gap.

1 comment:

  1. thank you for the venue in which to vent my feelings!