Today I bring you a wonderful guest post by my friend and fellow yogi, Sandy Newby...
Day 16 Meditation Challenge, so for 16 days I have taken time out of my day to meditate and look inwards, well ok so I’ve missed a day here or there, but sometimes my life is just too busy. Oh, and there was that one time it was a laughter meditation, I just could not sit there and listen to others laughing for absolutely no reason and not feel totally absurd. I did crack a smile twice and laugh just before I turned it off!
But aside from those missteps I have dutifully shut myself into my bedroom and opened my mind to the possibility of finding the peace and serenity that I am so desperately searching for.
Having gone through 16, or so, days of a 21 day program am I any closer to finding peace and serenity? I don’t know is my honest answer. At times I feel more peaceful, but with my life getting busier every day work, 3 kids, a home, a husband that doesn’t help out as much as I would like and fighting viruses that have STEAMrolled through my house; all have taken their toll on me so it is hard to tell.
I am grumpy at times and at a loss for patience with my family. However, I do not stay in that place for long. I do find my mind is able to get to a peaceful place quickly, but I also feel as though my emotions, be it anger or sadness, are also closer to the brink as well. I have literally broken down in tears twice while meditating, I am sure the experts might say that is a good sign and I do believe it could be but sometimes I just feel as though I am going to lose it.
So now I have to ask myself what do I do when the 21 days are over? Will I continue on in my own unguided attempt to find peace and oneness through meditation or will I look for another way, something that suits my personality more? I have always found that running is a great way for me to feel at one with myself and I have not been able to run as much as I like due to the weather and injuries. So for now I will finish up my 21 day Challenge, because it is not like me to start something I don’t finish and because in the end I am feeling more balanced and peaceful than I have felt in a long time. See you in the gap.