Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Yoga and the Party Girl...

It's hard to be disciplined sometimes. The road to good health, inner peace and enlightenment has many road blocks. Work, family, daily stresses, and relationships can pull us away from our focus. It's so hard to balance it all.

I wish I was one of those yogis who has been practicing daily for 15 years, eating perfectly and meditating for an hour a day. But I think I know myself better than that. I'm not sure if I will ever be that yogi. Call it a touch of ADD, or what-have-you, but I live balanced in two worlds. Part of me wants all of that... focus, discipline, self-enlightenment, to reach the impossible yoga poses. That is something I aspire to be. The other part of me is a little more wild. "That" side likes to go out and have fun and listen to loud music and dance and live in the now. Yup, I like a good party and I like to get my drink on. And I'm not talking about green tea.

It wasn't always this way for me. In fact I took a long hiatus from the party scene to be a married mom of two. Now at 40, I find myself in the midst of a divorce. It has it's stressful moments for sure and going out to blow off some steam seems to be just what the doctor ordered. Undoubtedly, I am having lots of fun as well.

If only there was a way to balance it all. It is not easy to find the motivation on a Sunday to roll out my yoga mat when Saturday evening I was out until 3 am doing shots of... I don't know... something red. And certainly it's hard to meditate when my head feels like it's affectionately being squeezed in a vice grip.

You know what I mean. Maybe for you it's not a few cocktails, maybe it's chocolate cake or smoking or laziness or Ben and Jerry's. We all have things that pull us off our track a bit. No one is perfect 100% of the time.

So, like you,  I do what I can. Perfection is never my goal. Life has changed for me and I'm doing what feels good right now. And it does feel good. But maybe it's time to reel it in a bit....

With yoga and meditation I sometimes find myself getting distracted, bored even with my practice and need take a break or switch to a different form of exercise for awhile. But when I'm "in", when I'm focused and regularly rolling out my yoga mat and meditating... I feel my best.

And I want to feel my best! I don't want to go out and party like I'm a 21 year old rock star anymore! Okay, that's not true... I still want to do that, occasionally. Just not a few times every week. I am not 21 anymore and I'm okay with that. I have nothing to prove to the twenty-some-thing's out there. Been there, done that (for way too long, I might add). I'm fun, I know it and that's all that matters to me.

It's time to refocus. I need to think about the "me" I want to be. Is she a party girl? Hell to the yes she is. But, she's also a yogi and spiritual and loves inner reflection and Wayne Dyer books and green tea and inner peace. I'm proud of that side of me. Heck, I'm proud of both sides of me! I'm in a period of transition right now though and I am going to cut myself some slack. I'm metamorphosing. And I know, in my heart, that I'll find the perfect path for me, once again.

1 comment:

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